A collection of random pics i have stored away
09
Jan
10
Motivation Indeed!!
I have watched this video 24454 times! 2 best beats i heard from 9th wonder other than “righteous” by edgar allen poe and “beautiful morning” off the minstrel show album
for the hell of it. “Righteous way to go”
and “beautiful morning”
The 80′s made me, The 90′s raised me, the new millennium defined me, the next decade will refine me. This past decade i have seen happiness, i have seen sadness. I have seen cold Michigan nights in a sleeping bag praying that a leap of faith pays off. I have hurt and i have been hurt. I have cried, I have laughed until i cried. I was fired many times, I was hired many times. I lost so much, but gained so much more. I was deceived, and i deceived. I lied, and i was lied too. I stole and a lot was stolen from me. I mislead and i was mislead. I helped many, and a few helped me when i needed it the most. I was broken down, and i was lifted up. I made money, i spent a lot of money. I starved many nights, saw my bank account at single digits more than enough times. I spent over 10 grand on shoes. I bought cars and lost cars. I had great intimacy experiences, and awful intimacy experiences. I saw a black president, I saw towers fall, I saw a Pop King fall…..which a peace of my youth and inspiration died with him. I flew across the country, and i drove across the country. I racked up well over 500,000 miles. I saw good friends die, I saw new loved ones born. The beginning and the end.
I learned about faith, I learned about trust, I learned about loyalty. I learned about my gut feeling, I learned about credit. I learned about responsibility. I learned about character. I learned about integrity. I learned about politics. I learned about business. I learned about fear. I learned about courage. I learned about deceit. I learned about defeat. I learned about reputation. Most importantly i learned about FAMILY. Eventually, i learned a lot about who i am. More importantly i learned a lot about who i wasn’t. I learned that actions speak louder than words. And i learned not everything is what it seems. I learned that everything that glitter aint gold. I learned that shortcuts never work. Not in math, not in science, not in money, not in business, not in love, not in standards, and not with character. I learned Karma is a bitch, and it comes back 3 fold. If you meet her once, you never ever want to meet her again. I learned to be wise whose hands you put your future in. You can trust nobody better than yourself, and make sure you can trust yourself. I learned that excuses get old, so does innocence. I learned that talk falls on deaf ears, and it is also wise to turn your ears deaf on talk. I learned that no man growing up before me taught me how to be a MAN. I learned that momma knows best. I learned that i am blessed. I learned that i have a gift or two. I learned that it is my mission to utilize my gifts to give to the world. Most importantly i learned that it all revolves around GOD. Put him first and your chances are great.
The past 4 years have been 4 of the most difficult years of my life. Those that know me, know i almost lost everything. From my shelter, to my money, to my dignity, to my self-esteem, to my friends, to my family, to my identity I fought for it. I never gave up. I always felt i had a mission to accomplish. And i think that saved my life, that kept me strong, and it kept me jaded to how bad things were. I have made some of the stupidest, i mean dumbest decisions of my life. I also made some of the greatest decisions of my life. I learned how to share my life. And after almost losing everything i shared, i learned how to stand alone and take care of myself. Well im still learning that, but I did it.
This past year………wow where do i begin? I hurt people, made them hate me. And honestly i was hurt by some. Disappointed by many. I achieved new heights of business, and comforts in life. But i reached lows in areas of my life. I truly saw the highs and lows in a span of 365 days. I learned to keep my circle tight, and keep it right. I learned that people will smile in your face and run their mouth behind your back. I saw that everybody is not as tough as they talk. A lot of fronts and gimmicks out there, even they all have different acts. Even the innocent is not so innocent. Everybody has a past, a history, and some dirt on them. If they act like they don’t, walk away. Thats where the fronting starts. I learned to love those who love you. Thats your best bet, and not a compromise but a more efficient and rewarding way to use your heart. I learned not to chase, you will never catch, and will risk yourself in the process. I learned to never trust a big butt and a smile in theory, don’t be driven by an image. You will probably be let down. Those who really care will show it. Those who don’t will just talk it. I realized that everybody won’t understand me. And thats ok. A few will have the passion to get to know me, they will show it, and those are the people you open up too. A lot of people i thought would be there for me, were not at various times. A lot of people i never expected to be there, were! Crazy how life works. So expect it to work that way. Never put anything past anybody, and never be surprised at anything. I learned what saving for a rainy day really meant. And most important i learned that if somebody shows you who they are….BELIEVE THEM!! Not what you want to believe, or hope is true.
*My Guardian Angels. I love you all for loving me like the brother and son you never had*
This year, i lost a few good friends, a few good women (no im not talking bout you. you were not good). I made some amazing friends! And learned im blessed with some amazing women in my life. I was reconnected with a lot of amazing people. I gained a sense of family in every type of way. And i end the year and decade with a focus of family first. I want to thank everybody that stood by my side this year, this decade. truly cared for me. Put up with my bullshit, my inconsistency, my stubbornness, my immaturity. The people who knew what was best for me even when I didn’t. Many say they were a real friend, they want credit. But i know the ones who understood me, and really showed me what being a great friend is. I want to thank everybody who believed and invested in my talents. I hope you were pleased with your investment, and if not i won’t miss twice! I want to thank the few that never flaked on me. Always came through even when i doubted them. I want to thank those that loaned me a few bucks when i needed it and even when I didn’t want it. I want to thank the few that covered the tab, and didn’t think less of me. I want to thank the few that never through what I had in my face, as a reason i could do for them. Never brought up what i drive or what i wear as a judgement of where I am in life. Never asked for an explanation of my hard times, just was there for me. I appreciate you. No, I love you! you are all teachers of character. I learn so much be experiencing people like you. You inspire me to do the same for you and others. I wish i could name names, but i won’t. If you know in your heart im talking to you, i probably am, and you can hit me up to confirm it. You know i keep it 100 when it comes to these things.
For next year? 2010? Not much to say, i will let my body of work speak for itself. But what i will share are a few focuses. One being the motto “Family First”.My Parents,My cousins, My elders, My GOD family (given to me from GOD, I truly believe this), my creative family, and my true close friends who are family to me. I dedicate next year to being great to them. They will take care of me more than anybody else if I take care of them, this i know. Another major motto is “365″ thats a number im aiming for. Thats everyday of the year. I just want to give my best, no excuses. No days off at being my best. And with that comes a will to establish myself as one of the hardest working people i know. I learned in 2009 that working hard is not just putting in a lot of hours. You can put in a lot of hours, but what are you making of it? Are you benefiting, are you efficient? in 2010 i want every ounce of it be efficient. Nothing goes to waste.
Happy New Year, Be Safe, Catch ya on the Flipside.
-P
The pictures are almost a timeline of the past 10 years. I made sure i put up pictures of all the people who made an impact over the 10 years. Friends and Fam. This is my thank you. If i missed you it’s because I didn’t have a pic. Lets fix that. You can tell which ones are the old ones. I didn’t feel like putting it in exact order, but i hope it tells a story. I feel it is only right to end it with a picture that was one of my proudest moments in my life. My mother in tears, from finally seeing first hand what my career is and what I created. It was tears of pride, relief and happiness.
Favorite post of every year.
BEST BEATS
Lil Scrappy -Addicted to Money (Justice League)
Keri Hilson – How does it feel (Timbo and Danja Handz)
Fabulous – Lullaby (Alchemist)
50 cent – Strong Enough (????)
Best Movies
Avatar (3-d please)
Hangover (my top 5 ever instantly!)
Inglorious Basterds (top 10 instantly)
Blind Side (top 5 ever instantly!)
Top TV Shows
Tough Love
Entourage
Love of Ray J (entertaining i have to sadly admit)
The Game (became addicted this year)
Favorite People
Obama
Jeff Van Gundy, NBA on ESPN
BEST SONGS
Keri Hilson – How Does It Feel
Rihanna – Russian Roulette
Raekwon – Surgical Gloves
J. Cole – Lights please
J. Cole – Can I Live
Lil Scrappy – Addicted to Money
FAVORITE QUOTE
“when somebody shows you who they are…..believe them.”
FAVORITE ALBUMS
Jay Stay Paid
Only Built 4 Cuban Linx 2
Ghostdini: The Wizard of Poetry in Emerald City
Loso’s Way
J.Cole – Warm Up
MEMORIES
R.I.P. Michael Jackson the King of Music, R.I.P. DJ AM, Twitter, White Bentley on twitter, Grammys on Twitter, Michael Jackson Funeral on twitter, NBA Playoffs on twitter, Everything on twitter, Lakers win championship, MVPuppets, Frisco Sick, Neices and Nephews, Spring modeling again, C’est Lavie Shoot, Ohio, Vegas and Encore, New Car Smell, Camille, Too many girls, etc etc etc
This beat is a beast. Probably play this song every day to get in the mood to attack the day.
23
Dec
09
2010 Co-Theme Song “CAN I LIVE”
These 2 verses say it all.
“Never been a fan of flashing, probably kuz i never could. Said if i had it never would. Then i got my first lil taste of paper and i splurged, I guess it’s just the n***a urge. This is the boondocks. I swear im like Huey mixed with Riley. Thursday i be trying to save the world, then Friday i hit the club. Hoping my d**k get rubbed by some fat asses. N***s get da scrappin then you hear them gats blasting. Damn, oh them n***s aint got no problem with me? My momma told me to speak like you got a college degree. You see i can, but i won’t. Because i’m saying what i want. Plus this slang that i speak don’t change that i’m deep,as the throat on this certified freak when she choke, as we head to the crib.Yes I let her give me head so she don’t remember where i live. My game is tight. Baby no need to bring pajama’s you ain’t spending the night. No disrespect, i just say it polite. I drop her off, before i sleep, i be praying for life. Like Hov said it, CAN I LIVE?? Dear Lord CAN I LIVE??”
“Now am i living to get paid? Just slave for a wage all week, I can’t do no 9-5 tell my momma sorry. I can’t do no suit and tie, no, i want the glory. If you knew me, you know my life is like a movie starring me. Pardon me if it seems that i’m following my dreams, i’m not reading off the script that they picked for me. I ain’t pissed naw, couldn’t give a s**t hardly. I be s***ting on them n***as that was s***tting on me. Will i live or will i die before they get to know me? If i go, i know the ones that’s pouring liqour for me. And i know the fake n****s really hating on me. Knew that i was about to blow so they were waiting on me. But oh no! see i’m smarter than they know oh oh. But hold on, because i’m not quite ready to go oh oh. CAN I LIVE? Somebody told me there is only one shot. So i will be got damned if i’m ever gonna stop. Promised to my momma imma make it to the top, so im gonna keep climbing till my heartbeat stops…..”
J. Cole – Can I Live
There is all kinds of underlying messages in it. But it says it all. It’s one of those verses you think was wrote for yourself, pretty much word for word relate to me. But it was expressed by somebody else. Very few songs i feel that way about. Reason i didn’t take out any words of the verse no matter how dirty or vulgar it was. It is all truth, and honesty of my mindset.
Oh yea and J. Cole is my favorite new artist coming out. Dude spits, and is talking bout some real stuff unlike Drake. First dude signed to Roc Nation, and on Jay-Z’s “A star is born” on blueprint 3. which he killed Jay-Z on. Probably had the best verse on the album outside of the song “Thank You”
22
Dec
09
Covered Girls Shoot Preview
Staring me behind the ringflash! fun shoot can’t wait until the pics are released. Some great material. Some of my best. No toot
Click the link since the coding sucks on here.
Sneak Peak! from Cover’d Girls on Vimeo.
isn’t even on a song thats out yet. Watch this video and at the 6:02 mark my jaw drops. That beat is amazing and what i consider some real West Coast music! If The Game does not use that beat…….*kanye shrug* im not buying the album.
23
Nov
09
FEVER – Triple P
I know a lot of my friends Male and Female can relate to this song. You don’t have to admit it to me. But this is for you. Stay Positive, Stay Open, Stay Believing.
19
Nov
09
Autumn has spoken….
“Black people don’t care of there mental health until a ***** goes overboard. We gotta be more pro-active. White kids grow up with therapists. Our daddies leave us. Nobody Counsels us. We see our m0mma’s get beat. Nobody Counsels us. We lose friends in the street. Nobody counsels us. It’s hard being a black kid…….But nobody counsels us. So we grow up with a lack of confidence. Unproductive with no goals, no communication skills, to be f’d up adults, and continue the cycle with our kids. We gotta be pro-active if we wanna go to the next level of living. “Get ya mind right” is on some real stuff. “
-Dr. Autumn Blossom
- Everybody has a history, i just don’t front about mine.
-I hate the blackberry trackball.
-Buying a house is a tough process even with lots of money and great credit.
-Walks on the beach still work.
-Chilvary isn’t dead, just has a weak pulse.
-Be careful for what you ask for. You will get it when you least expect it.
-Don’t deal with anything or anybody you have to make excuses for or explain.
-Brandon Jennings is no joke.
-Never trust a little butt and a smile.
-There are grown, middle schoolers.
-I can’t find the purpose of going to a club.
-Family over “friends”
-1 girl over “options”
-German Dad’s make great kids
- Follow your heart, even if following your heart isn’t “cool”
to be continued….
18
Nov
09
Camillionare
This post is dedicated to you Camille……
About a week or two ago, i noticed my lil’ baby sister (just turned 14), added me on her myspace. I’m hardly on myspace. I decided to check out her page, and see whats going on in her world. Well to my surprise, in the Hero’s section, was a picture of me……..*jaw drop* And above it said “my big headed brother Preston, we are going to take over the world together”. That hit me in a major way. I mean this girl means so much to me. I see so much of me in her. Her artistic talent is out of this world. And i remember being 12,13,14 with a talent nobody understood. Nobody could comfort me or guide me with it. I remember, at that age, my big bro had just got sentenced to life in prison, and my other bro went away. I felt i was out here alone. Sometimes you meet somebody and GOD speaks to your heart and tells you “Step in, and be what that person needs”. Well i don’t know if she needed a big bro, …….as much as i needed her.
I mean she has made me think about getting my act together. But after reading what i did on herpage. I was touched. I realized my work and talent is more than just getting paid. GOD gave me a tool to speak to people, inspire people, help people, lead people, motivate people, etc. Who knows, maybe more. And at that time i realized the satisfaction of giving back to others is greater than any dollar i have received. To give my lil’ sis motivation, inspiration, hope, means everything to me. Because honestly she has more talent at 14, than i will ever have! Iwill do what i have to do, to make sure she will be more than i could ever be in this world. I mean she inspires me to be a better artist. I feel i have to step my game up because of her.
Camille: like you said in my Birthday Card (great stuff). We haven’t been in each others life for long. But we will forever. You told me when we sat down and talked last week that you never had a brother figure. Well now you do. Blood, and all that doesnt matter. I will step up and be the brother you need. For you, for your mom, for your big sister. I might stumble at times, but have faith in me. As i will with you. Anything i tell you is not to be a pain in the ass, it’s because i don’t want you to make the silly mistakes i have made. And the mistakes you do make i want you to be able to learn from them and capitalize from them. Like i told you im gonna be hard on you. Real hard, and at times you might hate me. But i rather it be me, than those people out there in the real world that could care less about you and just want to break you for their own gain. I have a lot of fam in my life now. A lot of “sisters” you will meet. But you are my baby sis. Your purpose in my life is special. We will conquer the world together, But you will conquer so much more as an individual. You make me want to be a better person, a better example for you. You challenge me to do that. You challenge me to be a better artist as well. So thank you, but dont let it go to your head. I will check you!!
Thank you for being you. And I Love You,
Big Bro,
prestidigitation
Jesus Christ this game is ugly. Ugly Ugly Ugly!! *jumping up and down stomping feet*. I just don’t have the love for it anymore. I don’t have the desire anymore. I mean it is not the same. The competition is quicker, bolder, smarter, faster, more athletic. I used to be the one of the quickest and most dominating in the game, now im out there getting ate alive. I don’t seem to fit in anywhere. Those who respected me now look down on me as if im nothing. I feel like Allen Iverson in this ishh.
I used to look forward every season to winning a championship or dominating. Now i feel im just here because it’s all i know. But i don’t even feel i know it anymore. The game is ugly!! i want to say i rather sit on the sideline and coach, or do commentary. But i don’t even want to do that. I don’t want to watch! The game is not what it used to be. It used to be so pure, so full of passion. But technology F’d it up. Everything can be reviewed, or played back, or calculated, or exposed, or called. The game is not even fun to play anymore. You can foul out so easy over petty shit. Get fined for scratching your balls. For freedom of speech.
I mean i got patna’s i came into this league with, like the Marcus Camby types. What are we doing? They should hang up the sneakers too!! Maybe i will go play golf, something slow and peaceful. Or tennis, yea i can use my quickness and cleverness. Maybe i will go start a business or charity that does some good. But keep me away from this awful game!!
It’s time for me to check out the pension plan, see what options i got, and careers i have after leaving this game. But i have no desire to even show up to practice let alone the games anymore. Ya’ll Kobe, Lebron, Brandon J., Rudy Gay, Wade cats can have it. Enjoy…
This has nothing to do with Basketball
12
Nov
09
SPEEDING…(Another Metaphor)
It takes a Ferrari F430 Scuderia 3.6 seconds to go from 0-62. It is also capable of going from 100-0 in less than 5 seconds. To experience that quick of an acceleration is mind boggling, exciting, and addictive. One of the greatest joys of the world. The experience of extreme braking can be scary, making your heart race from the feeling of fear and excitement. But to have a vehicle like that you have to endure the expensive cost of maintenance. Parts break, parts dont last, gas mileage is awful, comfort is none, the price you pay is insane, and it starts to appear as less of practical option for most…….
Well lets just call my love life, or life period, a Ferrari Scuderia *blushes no homo*
with that said.
I’m ready to trade it in for a S-Class, Porsche Truck, Audi, etc. Something practical, slower, safe, comfortable, reliable, affordable, and with a warranty….Im done with the speeding tickets, negative attention, and danger.
Find me in the Car Pool Lane.
10
Nov
09
My Camera……..
..Always is there for me when i need to vent.
…Always makes me forget the pain.
..Never tells me i can’t.
…Allows me to have whatever i see through the lens.
…Has brought the world to me.
…Has allowed me to see what the world really is.
…Has shown me what true beauty is.
…Taught me that everything is not what it seems.
…Has taught me fake from real.
…Made me some great friends.
…Lost me some friends.
…Has given me family.
….Has given me enemies.
…Loves me unconditionally.
…Will show the world what really is in my mind and heart.
…Lets me know, no matter what everything will be ok.
…Has allowed me to survive these tough times.
…Is my world away from the world.
…Appreciates me and shows it.
…Gives back in return everything i give it.
…Will be there when you aren’t.
..Cares when you don’t.
…Always understands me, even when i don’t understand it.
…Allows me to be classic.
…Allowed me to create this.
Photo: Me / Model: Spring /Stylist: A. Bloss
ok so i have found out how to use my Blackberry as a hard drive and upload pics directly on to here. So with that said i might post more.
Spring and Autumn @ springs return to the camera! Spring will be my favorite model ever! Autumn hates this picture. So i love it more.
With my sisters bout to make classics
the day these get F’d up will be a bad day for me. One of my favorites
09
Nov
09
SEMA 2009……….ZZZZZZZ
Went to SEMA for a record 2 days! and surprisingly i was ready to go home after those 2 days! I got to talk to who i needed to. Props to Neil and Gene, and Warren as always, my SEMA running buddies. Also shot out to Phil Luis, Greg, Rudy, and Robbie that all looked out for me, or mentored, or kept me good company. I appreciate it. Also props to my Weksos Fam for getting me in the secret room at PRIVE and Miss Nikki Cash for the “industry” talk. Im up on game! lol. Here are some pics, taken from my blackberry. I did not even pull my camera out the backpack. Any woman i love will have to do more than my blackberry. Simple as that.
SLR roadster in the Iforged Booth (shot-out to Peter at iforged who always looks out! Snowboarding this season for sure!)
I don’t like skylines….but. this Wald skyline is the hardest one i have seen, and only one i like.
This 60 rag was flawless!! perfect color, perfect chroming on everything. I will die a happy man if i build a lowrider like this one day.
Tjin Edition Camaro SS that won the GM design award for best GM at SEMA. Thats my dawg!!!
*speechless* umm. UGR twin turbo lambo in mobil 1 booth, this was Phil Luis office all week. Im glad we had a meeting so i could look at this while he was spitting game. Helps me focus. lol
Beast!!
Money Mayweather and his peeps at the Palms which i stayed
Shot out to my Weksos Fam. I rock the shirt because its dope. Not because we break bread together. Hahaha. Word to the Air Hurache Trainers im rocking circa 94/95? i love those kicks.
I came home and spent my time with something beautiful and amazing.
Have a Blessed week!
16
Oct
09
Behind the Music…
A lot of times on my status updates i put lyrics. Not just because im a rap fan, but the lyrics are very obvious subliminal to how im feeling or what im going through. I let them speak for me in a very blatant way. I have another post thats more in depth about this. But screw it, i figure i just put all the quotes for how im feeling right now. Get this off my chest. I’m restless right now.
“Alot a speculations on the money’s i’ve made, honeys i’ve slayed, how is he for real, is that n*gga really payed? Hustla’s i met or dealt with direct, is it true he stayed in beef, and really slept with a tech? whats the position you hold?….”-million one questions
“n*ggas act different, kinda funny. I guess it’s because im dealin with a different kinda money…”-bigger business
“My brain is haunted with dreams, GS’s with BB’s on it, supreme schemes, to get richer than richie quickly, n*ggas wanna hit me, if they get me, dress my body in linen by Armani..”-Young G’z
“I’m on my grind cousin, i aint time for frontin, sensitive thugs you all need hugs. Damn lil man im just tryin to me, if the records 2 mill, im just tryin to do 3.” -Heart of the City
“Lets end the speculation im talking to all of ya’ll, males shouldn’t be jealous thats a female trait. what you mad kuz you push dimes and he sells weight? You don’t know my expenses i need bigger plates..”-Heart of the City
“It ain’t even fun no more im jaded, man it’s just a game, i just play it to play it. I put my feet in the footprints left for me. without saying a word the ghettos got a mental telepathy. Man my brother hustles, so naturally up next is me…” -Allure
Theres more….
-When you always reply to somebody on twitter, and they never reply back……they probably dont know u, or dont care. Stop being thirsty!!
-Men when we play dumb, we literally play dumb, and say dumb shit. Women when they play dumb, then just avoid and disappear. Smarten up!
-People in your life have to let you be great. If they can’t let you be great, let them go. What i mean by them letting you be great, is them letting you be you. Embracing you, and encouraging to be you. If you want to love, want to care, want to be succesful, want to be positive, and these people dont want you to do that with them. let them go. They aren’t letting you be you. Let you be free, and be open. Don’t let anybody hold you back from what you want.
-The worse u treat em, the better they treat you. How can i ever respect that? I want to be rewarded for doing good, not for doing bad! i can’t get my wings and halo that way!
-If somebody shows you who they are …….believe them the first time. (aka don’t give to much benefit of the doubt)
- Some people just don’t want better. Cut those people out your life. Yep act like your too good, you probably are.
-Theres a game that is a real life sims, with strip clubs, escorts, and u make real money, but its virtual. That scares the shit out of me.
-I seem to be really cool and close with some man eating females. Blame them for the fact that im cold and heartless. They trained me well. Love them!
-Alot of people are all hype. Once you see past there self-marketing, they are pretty dry and boring.
-I enjoy fall/winter more than the summer.
-My lil neices are walking and talking, meaning they have an opinion now, which means they could care less about how i feel. lol
-I hate it when a person talks and acts tough, you go at their head, and they want to play victim. That disappoints me a lot.
28
Sep
09
The Allure of the Game
So many parrellel’s i can relate too, its not even funny.
“Man, it’s just a game, I just play it to play it
I put my feet in the footprints left to me
Without sayin a word, the ghetto’s got a mental telepathy
Man my brother hustled so, naturally
Up next is me, but what perplexes me
Shit I know how this movie ends, still I play
the starrin role in “Hovito’s Way”
“It’s just life, I solemnly swear
To change my approach, stop shavin coke
Stay away from hoes, put down the toast
Cause I be doin the most.. oh no!
But every time I felt that was that, it called me right back
It called me right back, man it called me right back – oh no!”
“The game is a lightbulb with eleventy-million volts
And I’m just a mark, addicted to the floss
And doors lift from the floor and the tops come off
By any means necessary, whatever the cost
Even if it means lives is lost..”
Shit’s so real.
Jay-Z – Allure
14
Sep
09
Soundtrack to My Life…….
I have never heard a song in my life that fits my struggles perfectly. It’s literally a soundtrack to my life. And the demons i struggle with.
“I got 99 problems and they all bitches
Wish I was Jigga Man, carefree living
But I’m not Sean or Martin Louie
I’m the Cleveland nigga rollin’ with them Brooklyn boys
You know how hard it be when you start livin’ large
I control my own life, Charles was never in charge
No sitcom could teach Scott about the dram
Or even explain the troubles that haunted my mom
On Christmas time, my mom Christmas grind
Got me most of what I wanted, how’d you do it mom, huh?
She copped the toys I would play with in my room by myself, why he by himself?
He got two older brothers, one hood, one good
An independent older sister got me fly when she could
But they all didn’t see, the little bit of sadness in me, Scotty
I’ve got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me
I bring them to the light for you
It’s only right
This is the soundtrack to my life, the soundtrack to my life
I’m super paranoid, like a 6th sense
Since my father died, I ain’t been right since
And I tried to piece the puzzle of the universe
Split an eighth of shrooms just so I could see the universe
I tried to think about myself as a sacrifice
Just to show the kids they ain’t the only ones who up at night
The moon will illuminate my room and soon I’m consumed by my doom
Once upon a time nobody gave a fuck
It’s all said and done and my cock’s been sucked
So now I’m in the cut, alcohol in the wound
My heart’s an open sore that I hope heals soon
I live in a cocoon opposite of Cancun
Where it is never sunny, the dark side of the moon
So it’s more than life, I try to shed some light on a man
Not many people of this planet understand
I’ve got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me
I bring them to the light for you
It’s only right
This is the soundtrack to my life, the soundtrack to my life
It’s close to go and trying some coke
And a happy ending would be slitting my throat
Ignorance the coke man
Ignorance is bliss
Ignorance is love, and I need that shit
If I never did shows, then I’d probably be a myth
If I cared about the blogs, then I’d probably be a jack-ass
Don’t give a shit what people talkin’ ’bout fam
Haters shake my hand but I keep the sanitizer on deck
Hope I really get to see 30
Wanna settle down, stop being so flirty
Most of the clean faces be the most dirty
I just need a thoroughbred, cook when I’m hungry
Ass all chunky, brain is insanity
Only things that calm me down, pussy and some Cali trees
And I get both, never truly satisfied
I am happy, that’s just the saddest lie
I’ve got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me
I bring them to the light for you
It’s only right
This is the soundtrack to my life, the soundtrack to my life
…to my life… yeah uhuh yeah “
Kid Cudi – Soundtrack To My Life
14
Sep
09
Vegas 2009 Part 1
Just got back from vegas. here is a few pics. im tired. Bye
this aint even the half.
10
Sep
09
EVERYBODY needs to know…….
ALBUM OF THE YEAR. REAL HIP-HOP, not one watered down radio joint. Better than expected. Ok im done.
Fifty Habits (in truth, some of them are more qualities, than habits).
I think these are great. Take a look and feel free to add your own.
Habits of successful people….
1. They look for and find opportunities where others see nothing.
2. They find a lesson while others only see a problem.
3. They are solution focused.
4. They consciously and methodically create their own success, while others hope success will find them.
5. They are fearful like everyone else, but they are not controlled or limited by fear.
6. They ask the right questions – the ones which put them in a productive, creative, positive mindset and emotional state.
7. They rarely complain (waste of energy). All complaining does is put the complainer in a negative and unproductive state.
8. They don’t blame (what’s the point?). They take complete responsibility for their actions and outcomes (or lack thereof).
9. While they are not necessarily more talented than the majority, they always find a way to maximise their potential. They get more out of themselves. They use what they have more effectively.
10. They are busy, productive and proactive. While most are laying on the couch, planning, over-thinking, sitting on their hands and generally going around in circles, they are out there getting the job done.
11. They align themselves with like-minded people. They understand the importance of being part of a team. They create win-win relationships.
12. They are ambitious; they want amazing – and why shouldn’t they? They consciously choose to live their best life rather than spending it on auto-pilot.
13. They have clarity and certainty about what they want (and don’t want) for their life. They actually visualise and plan their best reality while others are merely spectators of life.
14. They innovate rather than imitate.
15. They don’t procrastinate and they don’t spend their life waiting for the ‘right time’.
16. They are life-long learners. They constantly work at educating themselves, either formally (academically), informally (watching, listening, asking, reading, student of life) or experientially (doing, trying)… or all three.
17. They are glass half full people – while still being practical and down-to-earth. They have an ability to find the good.
18. They consistently do what they need to do, irrespective of how they are feeling on a given day. They don’t spend their life stopping and starting.
19. They take calculated risks – financial, emotional, professional, psychological.
20. They deal with problems and challenges quickly and effectively, they don’t put their head in the sand. They face their challenges and use them to improve themselves.
21. They don’t believe in, or wait for fate, destiny, chance or luck to determine or shape their future. They believe in, and are committed to actively and consciously creating their own best life.
22. While many people are reactive, they are proactive. They take action before they have to.
23. They are more effective than most at managing their emotions. They feel like we all do but they are not slaves to their emotions.
24. They are good communicators and they consciously work at it.
25. They have a plan for their life and they work methodically at turning that plan into a reality. Their life is not a clumsy series of unplanned events and outcomes.
26. Their desire to be exceptional means that they typically do things that most won’t. They become exceptional by choice. We’re all faced with live-shaping decisions almost daily. Successful people make the decisions that most won’t and don’t.
27. While many people are pleasure junkies and avoid pain and discomfort at all costs, successful people understand the value and benefits of working through the tough stuff that most would avoid.
28. They have identified their core values (what is important to them) and they do their best to live a life which is reflective of those values.
29. They have balance. While they may be financially successful, they know that the terms money and success are not interchangeable. They understand that people who are successful on a financial level only, are not successful at all. Unfortunately we live in a society which teaches that money equals success. Like many other things, money is a tool. It’s certainly not a bad thing but ultimately, it’s just another resource. Unfortunately, too many people worship it.
30. They understand the importance of discipline and self-control. They are strong. They are happy to take the road less travelled.
31. They are secure. They do not derive their sense of worth of self from what they own, who they know, where they live or what they look like.
32. They are generous and kind. They take pleasure in helping others achieve.
33. They are humble and they are happy to admit mistakes and to apologise. They are confident in their ability, but not arrogant. They are happy to learn from others. They are happy to make others look good rather than seek their own personal glory.
34. They are adaptable and embrace change, while the majority are creatures of comfort and habit. They are comfortable with, and embrace, the new and the unfamiliar.
35. They keep themselves in shape physically, not to be mistaken with training for the Olympics or being obsessed with their body. They understand the importance of being physically well. They are not all about looks, they are more concerned with function and health. Their body is not who they are, it’s where they live.
36. They have a big engine. They work hard and are not lazy.
37. They are resilient. When most would throw in the towel, they’re just warming up.
38. They are open to, and more likely to act upon, feedback.
39. They don’t hang out with toxic people.
40. They don’t invest time or emotional energy into things which they have no control of.
41. They are happy to swim against the tide, to do what most won’t. They are not people pleasers and they don’t need constant approval.
42. They are more comfortable with their own company than most.
43. They set higher standards for themselves (a choice we can all make), which in turn produces greater commitment, more momentum, a better work ethic and of course, better results.
44. They don’t rationalise failure. While many are talking about their age, their sore back, their lack of time, their poor genetics, their ‘bad luck’, their nasty boss and their lack of opportunities (all good reasons to fail), they are finding a way to succeed despite all their challenges.
45. They have an off switch. They know how to relax, enjoy what they have in their life and to have fun.
46. Their career is not their identity, it’s their job. It’s not who they are, it’s what they do.
47. They are more interested in effective than they are in easy. While the majority look for the quickest, easiest way (the shortcut), they look for the course of action which will produce the best results over the long term.
48. They finish what they start. While so many spend their life starting things that they never finish, successful people get the job done – even when the excitement and the novelty have worn off. Even when it ain’t fun.
49. They are multi-dimensional, amazing, wonderful complex creatures (as we all are). They realise that not only are they physical and psychological beings, but emotional and spiritual creatures as well. They consciously work at being healthy and productive on all levels.
50. They practice what they preach. They don’t talk about the theory, they live the reality.
So there you have it, your days of reading self-help books are done!
Source: HeadoftheBoard.com
