ok so i have found out how to use my Blackberry as a hard drive and upload pics directly on to here. So with that said i might post more.
Spring and Autumn @ springs return to the camera! Spring will be my favorite model ever! Autumn hates this picture. So i love it more.
With my sisters bout to make classics
the day these get F’d up will be a bad day for me. One of my favorites
-When you always reply to somebody on twitter, and they never reply back……they probably dont know u, or dont care. Stop being thirsty!!
-Men when we play dumb, we literally play dumb, and say dumb shit. Women when they play dumb, then just avoid and disappear. Smarten up!
-People in your life have to let you be great. If they can’t let you be great, let them go. What i mean by them letting you be great, is them letting you be you. Embracing you, and encouraging to be you. If you want to love, want to care, want to be succesful, want to be positive, and these people dont want you to do that with them. let them go. They aren’t letting you be you. Let you be free, and be open. Don’t let anybody hold you back from what you want.
-The worse u treat em, the better they treat you. How can i ever respect that? I want to be rewarded for doing good, not for doing bad! i can’t get my wings and halo that way!
-If somebody shows you who they are …….believe them the first time. (aka don’t give to much benefit of the doubt)
- Some people just don’t want better. Cut those people out your life. Yep act like your too good, you probably are.
-Theres a game that is a real life sims, with strip clubs, escorts, and u make real money, but its virtual. That scares the shit out of me.
-I seem to be really cool and close with some man eating females. Blame them for the fact that im cold and heartless. They trained me well. Love them!
-Alot of people are all hype. Once you see past there self-marketing, they are pretty dry and boring.
-I enjoy fall/winter more than the summer.
-My lil neices are walking and talking, meaning they have an opinion now, which means they could care less about how i feel. lol
-I hate it when a person talks and acts tough, you go at their head, and they want to play victim. That disappoints me a lot.
Ya’ll know i love J. Dilla for like 10 years he has been my fav producer. His new album came out Tuesday, and im in love. I need to go pick up a vinyl copy this weekend at Fat Beats and the official CD. Im still amazed at the fact all these beats were done over 4 years ago!! I will leave you with my fav track off the album. I know he loved using lil fame’s voice on tracks and would have loved to be here to witness lil fame of MOP spitting on his track.
This picture pretty much sums it up. Have a lovely Tuesday!!
Usually i dont blog about my personal day and day out life. But that might change as i rant more and try to get more involved with my blog as my outlet.
This weekend taught me a few things. I met some good people. WUT up Tasha and Ashley!! Look forward to making some amazing art together! Also Much Love to AI!! It felt good to meet people who have passions and hunger for some of the same interest at yourself. And are go-getter’s. Also that can relate to your mission to “survive” in Los Angeles. Its also great when you see chances not to just work with these people but establish meaningful friendships in the future.
With that said. i have been feeling a very big lack of “Go-Getter’s” in my life. I love my friends and family. But i find myself alone when im ready to go get things in my life. But sometimes its good to have that company. It is good to have a team. You are the company you keep. So thats something im going to address soon and make some adjustments. Also when you kick it with real people, you start to see things around you that arent real. They are exposed to you. Its just time to make some changes, which will suck for some people, but im not selfish enough.
With that said, hope everybody had a great weekend. Im waiting for a new battery charger for my point in shoot so i can make the blog better and capture more of my personal life. Also my squad won our semi-final game, which was the biggest game in the past 4 years for us. My boys stepped up. I hope they can start believing in themselves more on and off the court. Alot of us are just sleeping on our talents and abilities. What a shame. But championships next week!! A true test is if you can duplicate the results!!
Clipper game tonight, and another meeting with an Agency (L.A. Models) Model that wants to work with me. Time to play with the big boys! or girls! lol
I have been in very deep thought the past few days. Actually let me rewind back a few weeks. Ok I have been getting out my rutt the past few weeks, deciding to engage in activity with society. More on a business and hustle tip. Back to shooting. Back to taking on clients. Shit laying low dont pay the bills if you didnt save for a rainy day *hits myself upside the head*. But im back with a whole bag of lessons i learned this year to apply to the next.
Ok now fast foward to the past few days (yep getting our Tivo on right now). I have had some things heavy on my heart and mind. It was eating at me and i knew i had to figure out a action plan of resolution. And it always comes if i just calm down, open up my mind, and let my heart flow. I realized times are changing, its time to let go of alot and embrace a lot. Thats people, habits, responsibilities, mindset, etc. Im looking foward to this change even though its me taking a step out there, alone.
Dont wish me luck. Won’t need it. This is fate.
This is a teaser of a shoot i just did for my homies at C’est Lavie. go peep there site to stay up on all music, fashion, and art news for the cool crowd.
www.thisislavie.com
Im crying at work from trying not to laugh out loud. I would start watching around the 2:30min mark. Please , i pray to GOD you have speakers for this!
From the beggining this is funny. the whole part of them being in the studio and going at it. starting at the singing part around 1:20. and the whole part where Martin is trying to expose Varnell Hill and Varnell is flossing hard on him. Check out Martins face on his replies!
“Dont have a pool, got me. But we have a 10 mile lake out back. Call it Lake Varnell, the catfish are delicious.” Notice Martin trying not to laugh!
At about the 4min mark when they start aerobics. Lmao @ tommys high ass shorts, and at martin dancing while working out. Comedy
Im having Martin withdrawals. It does not come on TVone as much as it used too, and i never see it. Im pissed about that. Talking to a friend about some martin clips i was motivated to post up my favorites……for my enjoyment when im bored. lol
At about the 2minute mark this shit gets hilarious!! My fav parts are his little dance moves in front ot the mirror. Some old “playa” type dance moves.
Q-tip rocked it. I was suprised. I mean i went because i had a chance to seeing an iconic artist in hip hop history. But i had no idea he was going to rock it like that with a live band, and amazing showmanship. The whole place was rocking. We seriously were all dancing and grooving and going crazy over by the bar from all the classics he was throwing on.
myspace.com/pkassobeats
…..the type of woman that appeals to me. Listen to the words ladies. Oh yea but best part is Laura London is in it!! *faints*
Format: You studied photography, sculpture and film at Yale University earning you an honors degree in Art. How did your education play into the success of Kidrobot today?
Paul Budnitz (Founder of Kidrobot): It didn’t. As far as I’m concerned, traditional education is crap, and it took me ten years, most of my twenties, to undo the damage that I’d done to myself by listening to people who thought they knew how reality works. Inspiration is instinctual, you can’t analyze it and you can’t create it by going to classes. There are things that you can do to encourage the creative flow. None of them have anything to do with going to class. Learning to show up, reliably, to be accountable for what you promise to do (which is the most important quality you need creating and running your own business) is something you can learn from a mentor, or develop through discipline.
The things that you can learn from classes are technology, and I don’t mean just computers, but technology in the sense of business systems, organizational systems, etc. So that may be useful for some people, and for me, I learned what I needed to learn when it was necessary, and try not to fill my head with unnecessary garbage. My experience is that school is generally a waste of time, unless you enjoy it, or you’re a rare person that really can make use of it. Going to Yale had one great advantage, which is that when I moved to New York and was totally broke it helped me get apartments, because landlords would say, “Wow, this guy’s gotta be responsible and rich, because he went to an Ivy League school”. Little did they suspect, ahahaha.
One thing i love about the channel MTV JAMS is they play a lot of videos from the 90’s when i was growing up and the world influenced who i was. The other day this video came on. And it hit me how amazing the imagery was for it. The angles, the colors, the effects, all gave a visual compliment to an already amazingly written and performed song. This song i have to admit is one of my top 10 love songs ever. This song got me through my first big heartbreak in 1998 when it came out during my freshman year of college (yep I’m that old). I think growing up fascinated with music videos had a big effect on me, and now through photography I’m seeing the influence.
September only. This will probably be the last time i do this, as im starting to pull back on individual shoots to focus on more demanding clients. So take advantage! It’s pretty much a steal!
Im excited about this album. Love this song. I think its still on my myspace, havent checked in a while.
…….after 2 weeks that has felt like a month on the road. I refuse to complain, i must adjust. Because im determined for this to be a way of life, which it needs to be to be succesful with all im trying to accomplish. Anyways, i might do a full post later when i get pictures back. But for now. Oh yea i was in chicago for 3 days for work. Thanks to Gene, Neil, Dlight, Justin, and Vince for taking me to downtown area to celebrate my bday and see the most amazing mcdonalds EVER!! It was like a night club with hot girls!! And for 4 days i was in Vegas for Magic show, where i got the picture above while luckily walking in on a T.I. performance at the Ed Hardy Show.
All i can say is, this is a refreshing video! I love the concept, the animation, but its something alot of people can relate too. Very humble. I also love that Kanye is dropping alot of videos for songs on his album in an artistic manner. Not for sales or mainstream hype. Hip-Hop needs more of this. Urban Culture needs more of this. This is not cookie cutter.
Pretty damn good music quality, and the video editing, give this video character. Once again Nike and the people they pick to work with, really motivate me when it comes to marketing and creativity!
Nike – The Five from 13thWitness™ on Vimeo.
In a response to my earlier blog about wanting to be known for Preston. I went to my lil cousins myspace, who i haven’t talked to in a minute. I guess i have been a little too busy. Shame on me. But she doesnt care. She still loves me the same. She is like a lil sister to me not really a cousin. Shes a beautiful young adult that i hope finds her way in this world. Sometimes i need to be there for her more. But back to the point of this story……… I went to her page to see out of her thousand plus friends i was number one on her friends list. That means something still. And on her limited pictures theres a folder that says “My favorite things” and the album cover is a picture me and her took this year when i went to CLEVELAND after not seeing each other for over 5 years.
but what really touched me and inspired this blog is when i went on her page and i noticed in the section “Heros”, there was just one thing. The letter “P”. Thats not for Pkasso, thats not for Pworld. She sees all of that as Preston.
I love you Iman, you keep me going and staying focused. I never want to let you down as your HERO.
Centered is Alicia Sacramone. My crush started on the night she crumbled and caused the US to loose the team gold and settle for silver. Ok shes cute to me. Almost 21, Educated at Brown University. All thats nice. But what really turned me on, was when she made the most embarassing errors in the games *falling in 2 seperate routines*, she did not cry. She looked pissed. But she held her composure!! Wow thats a strong woman right there!! Oh on a side night. the girl on the right, Shawn Johnson is ill!!! That girl is incredible at only 16. I was amazed by how good she is. Ok my “sissy” moment is over.
Peace
It has been a while since i have really been personal on this blog. That’s some what the purpose of this blog. To show all sides of me. Random or deep. Lately i have been feeling a pressure or tension with no real avenue of relieving it. And i have to remember that even though public. My blog is my journal or my own little way of speaking to the world, when they want to listen on there own terms. With that said…….
They say “be careful what you ask for”. I always asked that one day i could be recognized for my talents and ambition. I could be heard and express myself, and the world recieve it. Well i guess i am realizing that i’m getting what i asked for. My photography is starting to gain attention and rave reviews. Its a blessing and a flattering situation. At first i thought it would be cool to have a bunch of hot girls wanting to hang around you or give there attention to you. But at times i’m starting to hate it. Because you realize a lot of it is because of this talent they can benefit from. Everybody gathers around you to benefit from your talent. It is a business, it is a hustle. You have to stay focused and seperate it from the pleasure. But i’m at a point in my life where the majority of my time and dedication is being around the business side of life. That’s when it gets difficult. Because nothing around you feels real anymore. Nothing feels genuine. The relationships you have with people are from creative attraction. People stay in touch with you not because of the person you are. But because of what you do. As much as we can say the personality behind the talent means a lot in terms of chemistry and such, I have to wonder. If i dropped this camera today, walked away from photography or if i walked away from Function and Form. Who would still genuinely, truely, give a fuck about me? Who would still want to hang out as much, talk as much, get to know me?
My guess would be only about 10-15 percent of the people i know involved with all the things i do. Most people would say “who cares?”. Well i guess in a way , deep down i do. I always told myself that no matter where i go in life, or the experiences i have, i want to remember who i am, where i came from and whats important to me. My values. How i was raised. My parents and support group as a kid, raised me to be a person that genuinely cares about people. I was raised to have an open mind. I was raised to be supportive and loyal. And i find that in anything i do, its important to me to keep these values as much as possible. But in reality a lot of these values just don’t fit in the industries i’m in, or the life i live. So you just find yourself lost. Feeling that you cannot truely be yourself. You have to put on this character to deal with the industry or politics of it all. People know me for Pkasso, People know me as Pworld. But a lot of people miss out on Preston. On the flip side……..There are people who know me as Preston but have no idea about who Pworld or Pkasso is. So they tend to lack some respect, or understanding of the person they are dealing with.
Alot of people like to title themselves as the underdog or the victim. A lot of times i feel under appreciated. Because a lot of people assume by what they see on the surface but have no idea what i deal with day to day, the struggles. Mentally, spiritually, physically, etc. Trying to put a company on the map in an industry where the odds are against you if you don’t have millions of dollars and nobody knows your name. Trying to show the world and make the world respect a passion i have, when nobody even knew i had a passion for it and didn’t acknowledge it. And venturing into new area’s and dreams in my life. I suck it up a lot. I don’t complain, i walk away from a lot of situations where i want to get frustrated because that person doesn’t realize all i have on my plate. They only see the aspect of my life that benefits them. And they probably don’t care what else is on my plate. Its a cut throat world out here……
But at times i want to escape. I want to disappear, where nobody can ask me about a picture, nobody can ask me about a suspension, or a beat, or to be there for them to talk too. or to make them feel better. I want to take control back and say “no its not about what you want, its about me, i’m taking away everything you feel i have to offer you and lets see if you still care.” I want to say, fuck your pictures, fuck your car, fuck what your going thru. Shut up, and listen to what i want what i’m going thru and how are you going to help me out!!. Its funny alot of people, if i asked them for the same favors i do for them, i wouldn’t get half the effort. If i wanted half of the thoughtful efforts that i have for others i would be dissapointed. Maybe i just need to find a way to really disappear. See who appreciates what and how they show it *shrugs*.
Stay blessed.
Did that really go down? I hope he redeemed himself!
